ericcris10sen
First Fill-Up (of many)
- Location
- Zion National Park, Utah
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Sorry for this rant, this is the ONLY place I really have to rant that people I know don't go on so I NEED to get this off my chest as it's fricken making me pissed at the moment. Also, I've edited some words so I don't use the entire F word or just delete it. I've also edited some other things because apparently they're curse words as well lol sorry about that. But I'm so used to saying it, just not having it in here makes me feel like I'm not as tired and pissed as I really am. So my apologies ahead of time if you DO read this. It said life issues so I thought this thread would be a good place to vent.
My gobble I am so sick and tired of people making such a HUGE f'ing deal out of EVERYTHING!!! Oh, you didn't send me anything on mothers day! Oh you didn't call when I graduated college! Oh this, oh that! Listen, I'm working 9 hour shifts and it's JAM PACKED at this park. I MEAN JAM PACKED. This is the busiest time of the ENTIRE YEAR and we're getting over 4 THOUSAND people EVERY DAY. Please excuse me for not running to the store before work (which is 20-25 miles away BTW) and try to find a gift for mothers day. I called when I could. I get NO cell phone service where I work and those areas where I DO get service, I'm working at a gate where people are coming through the gates CONSTANTLY. You get NO time to sit down and have a phone call. Sorry I called right after work when I was driving home at 9pm to wish you a happy mothers day only to get griped at because I didn't buy flowers or a gift like I do EVERY YEAR. Yea, because one year I didn't do it, it means I don't love you anymore. RIGHT. Yea, I guess we can forget that piece of jewelry I bought for Xmas last year because that doesn't count, RIGHT? We've already made amends and I feel no guilt or sorrow, we just moved past it.
Now my friend who is supposed to come over btw next month, is complaining because I didn't congratulate him on graduating college. Yea, it slipped my mind. Again, work is f'ing HECTIC as hell and I have a LOT going on in my F'd up mind and I'm trying to deal with my stress levels from all the A-holes who come through the gate (not calling all visitors A-holes, I'm calling the ones who gripes and moan about the park or the traffic or the lines or whatever it may be and feel I give two F's about what they think. Sorry, it's great people are getting out and seeing the parks but I NEVER asked for 4,000+ people a day to come here and make this park a living HELL). So yea, it slipped my mind that you graduated on a certain day.
You know what? No one other than my parents that came over and saw me or congratulated me when I graduated boot camp. No one (other than my parents) called me and welcomed me home when I got back from Iraq. I passed training for Wildland Fire and didn't care for anyone to congratulate me for that. I can go on with my accomplishments and how no one congratulated me on what I've done but you know what? I DON'T CARE EITHER WAY. What I do and what I accomplish is because I WANT the outcome. I want it and so I go for it. I don't need someone saying, hey! Good job! Hey! Good job! Hey! Good job! For everything I do. I get it. You really strived for those grades and you graduated college. Cool dude. Awesome. Do I really need to pat you on the back for it? My BLOOD brother graduated college with a VERY VERY difficult degree (honestly can't remember the name, he would weigh the risks of companies) and he didn't need or want anyone to say, hey really good job on it! Hell, I never even said congrats for it because it was something he wanted and so he went for it and got it. You should feel good about yourself for accomplishing something and you shouldn't NEED someone to sit there and pat you on the back.
Then he goes around and always says, "why do I always need to be the one who says how are you doing and start up a conversation?" Umm because you're not working, you're 2 states over and you have a lot of free time on your hands. I'm working 9 hour shifts in one of the busiest parks in the US and when I get home around 8-9pm almost every week, I need to sit and relax when I get home and eat, maybe play games and go to bed. I don't think, hey, I need to call this person up and see how they're doing! Heck, I don't do that with my family! My mom is the one who almost always sits there and texting me but with my dad or my brother, I almost NEVER text them unless there's something to say. I mean, they're living their lives and doing what they're doing and we don't feel the need to sit here and try to make small talk.
I just don't get this. Everyone is so damn sensitive (these aren't the only instances) about everything. I think with my friend especially, he's never had any real life experiences. He still lives with his parents and he used to work at Costco then quit, got another job and quit because his "back hurts when sitting down for the entire day" so now he's jobless and has been for a little while. Dude, I joined the military when I got out of high school. I was yelled at, forced to do PT. Woken up with practically no sleep in boot camp. I went to my first base at 19 and 6 months later went to Iraq where almost daily our base was shot at by mortars or missiles. He'd piss his f'ing pants the first time and couple times he heard the anti-mortar/missile rounds being fired off. That ****'s loud as HELL. I've seen a dead body blow almost in half after a failed assassination attempt with a VBIED. When we were staying in the pods for those who were about to leave, we had a mortar round land so f'ing close to where we were staying, it shook the damn ground and was deafening. My backs torn to heck and hurts every day I get up and do ANYTHING physical because of my service. I have ulcerative colitis because of my time in Iraq. I have anger issues and sometimes depression for whatever stupid reason when I was in the mil. I've worked my ass off to get in wildland fire and it was a great feat when I passed the tests. I've almost been homeless because of no work. I've been flat out broke because of no work. My very good friend and wildland fire/hotshot lead committed suicide a couple months ago. The shelter I volunteer at had a pitbull that I absolutely fell in love with and made me happy, had to put her down because the state said she couldn't go anywhere because of her history. This happened out of the f'ing blue and happened that same day they told me which was right before I went to work. I HAVE life experiences so I guess to me, small **** like what people complain that I don't do like, call and say what's up every single day, just irritates the living **** out of me. You're my friend and we've BEEN friends for a very long time and I know that.
But I'm trying to live my own life here. I get up. I go to work. I come home. I do some things and go to bed. That's my fricken day. I'm tired and sore as hell from standing up for over 9 hours because of the damn traffic here every single damn day, and from talking every single minute I'm at work because everyone has 1000 questions and even if they didn't, I'd still be talking because they DON'T STOP COMING. I'm tired of talking and when I get home I just want to NOT say anything.
I don't know. Maybe this makes me insensitive and an a-hole but I'm just tired of people whining and complaining about mundane things. I'm just right now so sick and tired of life. Maybe I need to work in a different department or at least, a different park. Who knows what I should do anymore.
Sorry for this rant, this is the ONLY place I really have to rant that people I know don't go on so I NEED to get this off my chest as it's fricken making me pissed at the moment. Also, I've edited some words so I don't use the entire F word or just delete it. I've also edited some other things because apparently they're curse words as well lol sorry about that. But I'm so used to saying it, just not having it in here makes me feel like I'm not as tired and pissed as I really am. So my apologies ahead of time if you DO read this. It said life issues so I thought this thread would be a good place to vent.
My gobble I am so sick and tired of people making such a HUGE f'ing deal out of EVERYTHING!!! Oh, you didn't send me anything on mothers day! Oh you didn't call when I graduated college! Oh this, oh that! Listen, I'm working 9 hour shifts and it's JAM PACKED at this park. I MEAN JAM PACKED. This is the busiest time of the ENTIRE YEAR and we're getting over 4 THOUSAND people EVERY DAY. Please excuse me for not running to the store before work (which is 20-25 miles away BTW) and try to find a gift for mothers day. I called when I could. I get NO cell phone service where I work and those areas where I DO get service, I'm working at a gate where people are coming through the gates CONSTANTLY. You get NO time to sit down and have a phone call. Sorry I called right after work when I was driving home at 9pm to wish you a happy mothers day only to get griped at because I didn't buy flowers or a gift like I do EVERY YEAR. Yea, because one year I didn't do it, it means I don't love you anymore. RIGHT. Yea, I guess we can forget that piece of jewelry I bought for Xmas last year because that doesn't count, RIGHT? We've already made amends and I feel no guilt or sorrow, we just moved past it.
Now my friend who is supposed to come over btw next month, is complaining because I didn't congratulate him on graduating college. Yea, it slipped my mind. Again, work is f'ing HECTIC as hell and I have a LOT going on in my F'd up mind and I'm trying to deal with my stress levels from all the A-holes who come through the gate (not calling all visitors A-holes, I'm calling the ones who gripes and moan about the park or the traffic or the lines or whatever it may be and feel I give two F's about what they think. Sorry, it's great people are getting out and seeing the parks but I NEVER asked for 4,000+ people a day to come here and make this park a living HELL). So yea, it slipped my mind that you graduated on a certain day.
You know what? No one other than my parents that came over and saw me or congratulated me when I graduated boot camp. No one (other than my parents) called me and welcomed me home when I got back from Iraq. I passed training for Wildland Fire and didn't care for anyone to congratulate me for that. I can go on with my accomplishments and how no one congratulated me on what I've done but you know what? I DON'T CARE EITHER WAY. What I do and what I accomplish is because I WANT the outcome. I want it and so I go for it. I don't need someone saying, hey! Good job! Hey! Good job! Hey! Good job! For everything I do. I get it. You really strived for those grades and you graduated college. Cool dude. Awesome. Do I really need to pat you on the back for it? My BLOOD brother graduated college with a VERY VERY difficult degree (honestly can't remember the name, he would weigh the risks of companies) and he didn't need or want anyone to say, hey really good job on it! Hell, I never even said congrats for it because it was something he wanted and so he went for it and got it. You should feel good about yourself for accomplishing something and you shouldn't NEED someone to sit there and pat you on the back.
Then he goes around and always says, "why do I always need to be the one who says how are you doing and start up a conversation?" Umm because you're not working, you're 2 states over and you have a lot of free time on your hands. I'm working 9 hour shifts in one of the busiest parks in the US and when I get home around 8-9pm almost every week, I need to sit and relax when I get home and eat, maybe play games and go to bed. I don't think, hey, I need to call this person up and see how they're doing! Heck, I don't do that with my family! My mom is the one who almost always sits there and texting me but with my dad or my brother, I almost NEVER text them unless there's something to say. I mean, they're living their lives and doing what they're doing and we don't feel the need to sit here and try to make small talk.
I just don't get this. Everyone is so damn sensitive (these aren't the only instances) about everything. I think with my friend especially, he's never had any real life experiences. He still lives with his parents and he used to work at Costco then quit, got another job and quit because his "back hurts when sitting down for the entire day" so now he's jobless and has been for a little while. Dude, I joined the military when I got out of high school. I was yelled at, forced to do PT. Woken up with practically no sleep in boot camp. I went to my first base at 19 and 6 months later went to Iraq where almost daily our base was shot at by mortars or missiles. He'd piss his f'ing pants the first time and couple times he heard the anti-mortar/missile rounds being fired off. That ****'s loud as HELL. I've seen a dead body blow almost in half after a failed assassination attempt with a VBIED. When we were staying in the pods for those who were about to leave, we had a mortar round land so f'ing close to where we were staying, it shook the damn ground and was deafening. My backs torn to heck and hurts every day I get up and do ANYTHING physical because of my service. I have ulcerative colitis because of my time in Iraq. I have anger issues and sometimes depression for whatever stupid reason when I was in the mil. I've worked my ass off to get in wildland fire and it was a great feat when I passed the tests. I've almost been homeless because of no work. I've been flat out broke because of no work. My very good friend and wildland fire/hotshot lead committed suicide a couple months ago. The shelter I volunteer at had a pitbull that I absolutely fell in love with and made me happy, had to put her down because the state said she couldn't go anywhere because of her history. This happened out of the f'ing blue and happened that same day they told me which was right before I went to work. I HAVE life experiences so I guess to me, small **** like what people complain that I don't do like, call and say what's up every single day, just irritates the living **** out of me. You're my friend and we've BEEN friends for a very long time and I know that.
But I'm trying to live my own life here. I get up. I go to work. I come home. I do some things and go to bed. That's my fricken day. I'm tired and sore as hell from standing up for over 9 hours because of the damn traffic here every single damn day, and from talking every single minute I'm at work because everyone has 1000 questions and even if they didn't, I'd still be talking because they DON'T STOP COMING. I'm tired of talking and when I get home I just want to NOT say anything.
I don't know. Maybe this makes me insensitive and an a-hole but I'm just tired of people whining and complaining about mundane things. I'm just right now so sick and tired of life. Maybe I need to work in a different department or at least, a different park. Who knows what I should do anymore.
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